Onward
29 January, 2018
Happy New Year!
29 January, 2018
Process
20 August, 2017
A scrap of cellophane lays on my studio floor. It is crumbled, paint adhered to its surface, and clearly used. It appears to be garbage, disposable, and hopeless.
Yet-
I feel like I can use it again. I want to give it a second chance, and maybe even a third…
I take it and lay it upon the surface- the two materials are one.
Time goes by. It goes by fast.
I peel it back- leaving behind its mark from previous use.
That surface has part of that material now. It will never leave. We can’t change what happened.
This is a picture of all that I have given, and all that I have lost along the way.
14 August, 2o17
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11 July, 2017
Vulnerability
9 August, 2017
This month in the studio, I have been meditating on vulnerability and how powerful and brave it is to show it. It is probably one of the hardest things for humans to show (especially to other humans), and is a very difficult area for me as well. It is especially hard when it is overlooked or taken for granted. In my opinion, and to look at it in a positive light, vulnerability is never a waste. I think that even when one’s vulnerability is taken for granted by another, in the end you showed yourself how courageous you are.
On the subject of vulnerability, and honestly this is kinda scary for me..but I’m doing it anyway…
I’m going to be posting pages of my journal quite often here as well to share with you.. I have been thinking about the importance of showing you all a little of what goes on in my mental process of making because it goes hand in hand with my physical process of making. Part of my practice includes long reflective pauses during the process and journaling ideas that are swimming around in my mind. That way, I have references of emotions and events that have happened during that painting’s life cycle- to be able to look back and fully come to terms with the finality of the work.
31 July, 2017
A is for Acclimate, B is for Balance, C is for Change
8 August, 2017
Life has been a crazy whirlwind this Summer. I have come face to face with so many incredible opportunities, it’s hard to digest everything that has actually happened in my life lately. I have acquired a new full time job, and moved into my new studio at Verge Center for the Arts in downtown Sacramento. I’m making work for my first solo exhibition post grad school, trying to finish my thesis, and dealing with a variety of emotions and anxieties about everything else that is LIFE (can’t forget that!).
Amongst all the busy-ness and other personal junk, it has been a real challenge and a journey making new work for my show Right Now (And Yesterday), opening at the Union Gallery at Sacramento State on September 25th (Reception on September 28, 6-8pm). Clumsily, i’ve been acclimating to my new life as a working artist, trying to balance studio hours, and have been dealing with the constant post grad artist struggle: “Now what?”
However, I am so unbelievably grateful for everything that has happened to me preceding the quickly approaching deadline for my show. These busy, wonderful, frustrating, messy, empowering events have driven the work into a direction I couldn’t have even imagined 2 months ago. I have never felt so emotionally connected to my process as I have now in my current work, and I foresee that it will just get better (maybe messier? crazier?) from here- I couldn’t do what I do without a little crazy.
